Life is Beautiful

It really is. Even though i've been going through some rough times, i know i can hold on and be strong. Reality has hit and i know that i'm way better and deserve way better. I'm strong enough to say that I DON'T CARE. I don't care anymore, and that's final. You can go ahead and do what you do and what you want, because in the end you're just going to realize that I'm too good for you and I'm better than you. You're going to realize that you're blind and you know whats gonna happen? When you come back I won't be there because i'll be off doing what I do best... Getting my shit straight, and paying more attention to the finer things in life.

I learned that i have to be selfish a lot more in order for me to be happy. I can't be the one who makes everyone happy or even always be there for someone. I mean I can, but as of now thats not the way its gonna be.

Life is really kicking my ass right now with a ridiculous amount of obstacles and shit thats been thrown in my damn face that makes me think and feel emo. But shit, gotta suck it up! Thats the way life is and will always be, just gotta make the best of it.


.. Everythings going to be fine.

your fun is only limited by your imagination

so many thoughts run through my head. I really don't know what to think or do anymore. Why do i still care?

All i have to say...

Today was great. I didn't get that much sleep but all i have to say is...
- Clinicals (got out early)
- Finished hw at the clinicals
- Long ass nap to catch up on sleep
- Swooped up my cousin and my nigga justin for the game.
- Saw my first Skyline GTR on the road today, so beasty.
- 18pts and won 70 - 37. 4 - 0 baby.
- Game this weekend against the number 1 team so we have to be on point. Hayward record 4 - 3
- Kicked it with my nigga Justin and caught up with him
- Last but mos def not the least! Ceeeelllleeeebbbbrrraaaattttiiioonn BLUNT!
- And yes, i'm still out of it and i'm stressed as FUCK!

... Today was a day i needed mos def.

Stop sweatin me, you should follow me, I'm directin it
Other fools break it down, I be dissectin it

life..

is very stressful at the moment. Way too much going on in my life. I need a break, I need to rest, I really need to calm down or else i'm going to get overwhelmed with everything occurring at the moment. I hope i can recover from all this bullshit.

Not going to lie

But i am not really enjoying my life right now, i'm under so much stress, and so much bad shit is happening to me, idk.

aside from that my birthday was on sunday. i'm officially not a teen anymore. one more year till the big 2 - 1. Oh and thanks everyone for the wishes and gifts.

Everything

has been going well for me at the moment. my bike is more than 50 percent complete. I changed the colorway to it so yall better watch out when its finished in april. I'm starting to hoop again, my older cousin's best friend is picking up justin and me to play. we boutta doggggg. lol anyways, i've started to work out again and play basketball. my legs and lungs are so fucked up right now its not even funny, but i'm going to quit smoking since taxes went up. Since i dont have a job its gonna make me not want to spend money on stupid things like stoges, which i'm addicted to. School is good and i'm just jealous of those who have a spring break, because i don't have one. MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP WOO. tomorrow i'm going on a journey with ray and justin, old school friends, best friends, brothers, whatever you call it. i'm excited i must say, i haven't kicked it like this in awhile, its good to get away like this and not have hella people around, i like it better that way..