Life is Beautiful

It really is. Even though i've been going through some rough times, i know i can hold on and be strong. Reality has hit and i know that i'm way better and deserve way better. I'm strong enough to say that I DON'T CARE. I don't care anymore, and that's final. You can go ahead and do what you do and what you want, because in the end you're just going to realize that I'm too good for you and I'm better than you. You're going to realize that you're blind and you know whats gonna happen? When you come back I won't be there because i'll be off doing what I do best... Getting my shit straight, and paying more attention to the finer things in life.

I learned that i have to be selfish a lot more in order for me to be happy. I can't be the one who makes everyone happy or even always be there for someone. I mean I can, but as of now thats not the way its gonna be.

Life is really kicking my ass right now with a ridiculous amount of obstacles and shit thats been thrown in my damn face that makes me think and feel emo. But shit, gotta suck it up! Thats the way life is and will always be, just gotta make the best of it.


.. Everythings going to be fine.

your fun is only limited by your imagination

so many thoughts run through my head. I really don't know what to think or do anymore. Why do i still care?

All i have to say...

Today was great. I didn't get that much sleep but all i have to say is...
- Clinicals (got out early)
- Finished hw at the clinicals
- Long ass nap to catch up on sleep
- Swooped up my cousin and my nigga justin for the game.
- Saw my first Skyline GTR on the road today, so beasty.
- 18pts and won 70 - 37. 4 - 0 baby.
- Game this weekend against the number 1 team so we have to be on point. Hayward record 4 - 3
- Kicked it with my nigga Justin and caught up with him
- Last but mos def not the least! Ceeeelllleeeebbbbrrraaaattttiiioonn BLUNT!
- And yes, i'm still out of it and i'm stressed as FUCK!

... Today was a day i needed mos def.

Stop sweatin me, you should follow me, I'm directin it
Other fools break it down, I be dissectin it

life..

is very stressful at the moment. Way too much going on in my life. I need a break, I need to rest, I really need to calm down or else i'm going to get overwhelmed with everything occurring at the moment. I hope i can recover from all this bullshit.

Not going to lie

But i am not really enjoying my life right now, i'm under so much stress, and so much bad shit is happening to me, idk.

aside from that my birthday was on sunday. i'm officially not a teen anymore. one more year till the big 2 - 1. Oh and thanks everyone for the wishes and gifts.

Everything

has been going well for me at the moment. my bike is more than 50 percent complete. I changed the colorway to it so yall better watch out when its finished in april. I'm starting to hoop again, my older cousin's best friend is picking up justin and me to play. we boutta doggggg. lol anyways, i've started to work out again and play basketball. my legs and lungs are so fucked up right now its not even funny, but i'm going to quit smoking since taxes went up. Since i dont have a job its gonna make me not want to spend money on stupid things like stoges, which i'm addicted to. School is good and i'm just jealous of those who have a spring break, because i don't have one. MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP WOO. tomorrow i'm going on a journey with ray and justin, old school friends, best friends, brothers, whatever you call it. i'm excited i must say, i haven't kicked it like this in awhile, its good to get away like this and not have hella people around, i like it better that way..

blogspot

I've decided to use blogspot from now on. I like it better than livejournal. Anyways i'm trying to get into a habit of posting here because i usually when i use the computer i only go on myspace, facebook, fremont fixed, youtube, craigslist, and check my email. That takes about a good 10 minutes of my time on the internet.

For those who are wondering how i've been, i've been pretty good. I've just been really busy with school. I never thought school would be kicking my ass this much. I'm doing well, but it takes a lot of goddamn sacrafice, and that is what i find hard to do. I always want to make enough time to spend with my friends, family, school, and myself. I never knew it would be so hard to balance all of them together, but i'm managing. That is one of the biggest reasons why i quit at h&m. I'm struggling with money right now so i'm trying to work again. stupid? i know... but i don't like working at h&m, it was good money but it wasn't worth it. hopefully i'm able to work with some of my friends at champs on the weekend for pocket money. haha. Things that have been keeping me occupied is bicycling. If you think i'm wasting money on a bike or think its plain stupid, i don't really care. It is a hobby that has made me very occupied and its a good reason for me to spend my money. I honestly don't care about wearing expensive designer jeans, the cleanest shoes, 50 - 100 dollar, hats anymore. I mean its nice to treat yourself out with something, but thats only temporary and its not like youre gonna wear that item every single day. But from my perspective i don't think it is necessary to look fitted and what not anymore. anyways, this is my first post and its taking a lot of studying time.
I have a 2 quizzes and a huge test this week. We gave injections last weekend, it was pretty dope. I don't have a spring break, so while all of you are enjoying your weekdays without going to school, i will be studying. I finish school in december. My birthday is coming next month, for those who want to join me and my friend kevin keep april 4th open for dinner in the city then probably hold something somewhere afterwards.